Today... a much better day than most... a much more eventful day than most... a day that is actually ending in good terms. There was one tragedy... but I'm trying to get over it. I'm trying so hard. So so hard.

What was the tragedy? Well, over a year ago, I tied two hair ties together. One meant me, and one meant Chris, and by tying them together I made them us. From that I decided that when they broke, it would be the end of Chris and I. I wore them as a bracelet. They stretched and stretched, and got so thin, but never broke. Eventually they became an anklet. And they continued to get thin. Today, they broke. One of the sides just snapped apart. I was so upset. But a few months ago Chris and I tied two new hair ties together, as a back up. So hopefully we won't part ways. But it's just not the same.

Everything else today was great though. School was pretty good. Why? Well mainly because we got an hour and a half long lunch, so that meant more time with Chris. But school was also good because I actually felt good about myself for once. Last night I went back to Clothestime and bought the pants that Chris and I liked so much yesterday. I also got 2 shirts and a pair of shoes, and all of it only ended up costing me $25. Why so cheap? Well I had a coupon, so all of it together only cost $50, and my mom paid for half. So I got to wear the cute pants today, with a tight white shirt. I just felt comfortable and sort of attractive. And a million people complimented me on how I looked. I know I know, "I don't care how I look", but I guess that I have to admit that I do care a little bit, and who doesn't get a nice feeling when somebody says something good about their apperance?

After school my mom dropped Chris and I off at the Safeway shopping center. We went to McDonalds, and then we snuck off to Amanda's house. I was extremely paranoid, and got that familiar nervous/vomity feeling. But I got over it. Amanda let us in and said we had to use her moms room. And that was that. I'll let you use your imagination about what happened when we were there. This seems to be the only thing that I can't write about openly in this journal. I'm not sure why, I just can't.

After we were done at Amanda's, we started to walk back to my house. But my mom drove by and picked us up, because she was on her way to a store. When we got in the van I sat in the far back. I don't know why, but for some reason I thought that sitting too close to her would help her sense that I had done something that she doesn't approve of. Chris had to go to a baseball game, so we dropped him off at his house, and then my mom and I went to a few stores. At one of the stores I bought a new swimsuit. What is it with me and spending money lately? No more.

At around 8:30 my mom and I went out to another store, and then to Starbucks. (mmm brownie frappucino) On our way home, at around 9, we picked up Chris. He stayed at my house until about 12. His mom had come to get him at 11:30, but her and my mom began to chat. Of course I didn't mind that they were talking, because it meant more time with Chris.

When Chris was over sat on the living room couch and watched TV. Invader Zim was on tonight! So yay about that. That show rocks. The 1st episode was called something along the lines of.. "Gir goes crazy, and stuff". It was quite amusing. I want a Gir, he's so adorable!

At 11 tomorrow morning Chris and his parents are picking me up, and we're going to the Jazz Festival in Sacramento. So yay, I'm so excited. When we went there two years ago, it was one of the best days of my life. It still remains as one of my greatest memories with Chris. I hope that tomorrow turns out at least half as good. ...But alright, I better go to bed now, so that I can actually get some sleep before I have to leave tomorrow. Eeeee, excitement!